People confuse me

I'm sure they do you too. I just don't get it, first I am too sensitive and need to open up but not let my feelings get hurt when I get a response. I need to just worry about my family and my kids and not pay attention to anyone else, then when I say something that's on my mind and not even something to be taken seriously, you yell at me. Which thing am I supposed to be focused on?

Ryan's sister Shelby moved in with us a few days ago, which I personally feel is the best decision made for her, because we are the only stable and positive people in her life. But now everyone is sending nasty emails and starting rumors, within our own family about how she supposedly ran away and never told anyone where she was going and how we live in a fantasy world if we think we can help her. People confuse me.

How can you talk about your own family like that? How can you honestly believe someone, especially someone close to you doesn't deserve the benefit of the doubt in this situation? How can you think you are better than anyone with all the things you have done? and most importantly, how can you sit there and watch someone be so lazy, they don't a thing for themselves and are extremely rude about it, and just pretend that's acceptable? I don't understand you people!

I am losing faith in the goodness of the world, I feel like people are losing all sense of respect for themselves and their values, and God willing I am not going to let that happen in my house. I love every person and creature living under my roof, and they will no it, and they will not ever have to wonder if they mean the world to me. Maybe you should try to do the same.

What an exciting few weeks

So after a few months of house hunting, we made an offer on a house and it got accepted! So we officially have bought our first house, it is so amazing. It has four bedrooms, over 1800 sq ft, a fenced in backyard, it is so unbelievably perfect for our first house I couldn't ask for anything better. I am glad that that particular journey is over though, it was exhausting. Finding a house, falling in love with it, then before we could get our families up there to check it out for us, it got sold.

Ah, such is life I guess. I really hope this is a sign of things to come though. That things will finally work out in our favor. We, as a family, are going to have to make some major changes in our spending habits. Step one: pay off our biggest credit card then cut it up. Step two: not feel such a strong desire to eat out and start making more dinners at home. Step three: find other ways of using our free time besides shopping.

I think if we pay attention and work hard, we should be able to get everything taken care of and hopefully set ourselves up for a bright future. I am going to be job hunting when we get to Omaha and get settled. Hopefully there is a job out there I will love and make enough money to pay for child care and have some left over. That would be nice. Thank you for the support everyone!

wow alot has happened

A lot has happened in the last week or so. We finally got our taxes done today, bout time, one less thing to worry about. I went to the doctor yesterday for one more cancer screening, and after 2 more scrapes, we are officially cancer-free! It has only taken almost a year for all this to hopefully be over for good. I don't know how much more of that I could have taken. We just got home from our first family vacation, one that didn't involve taking the kids to go see family. Not that going to see them isn't great, but we finally had an adventure all on our own.

We went to San Diego, it was amazing. Saw a beach and the ocean for the first time in my whole life. What an experience, hopefully there will be more to come for our kids. Will is potty trained now, thank you Jesus! He didn't mess up his pants the entire time we were driving, which was a six hour drive! He also learned the very valuable art of peeing outside. Always a skill I highly recommend anyone to master if they will be vacationing.

Ever since Ryan came home, things have been a little stressful, searching for a house, getting things ready for the big move in a couple of months. So much to do, so little time. I hope everything works out, it really makes things easier when one or two things work themselves out. I wish Alex would finally start walking, he is almost 15 months, it has to happen sometime soon. I guess Will was about that age when he started. Things are going to start looking up, I can feel it.

It already started, first we finally got orders to move back towards our families, then we went on a real family vacation, then I got told I'm cancer free for the first time in almost a year. The only thing we need now is for the perfect house to fall into our lap and we get it before the big move. Here's to wishful thinking!