I don't even know where to begin

Sweet lord where to begin. Things are crazy around this mad house. We have started packing and are getting everything squared away for the big move. I have officially remembered how much I hate packing and moving!!!! I wish there was an easier way, oh wait, there is!! But Ryan refuses to let other people pack our stuff and determine when we get it back. Can't say I blame him, but I really don't want to pack or clean anymore. So that's what's going on with that.

Ryan's sister is still here, I don't even know what to say about that anymore. I really am not going to say anything about it. Just know, I am reaching my limit. I can only handle so much crap from one person, I don't care how bad you are feigning for something. Lord give me strength to make it through this, I need every ounce you can give me.

We close on our house today, no idea how that is going to go, but hopefully smoothly. I would like to have someone live my life for me for the next few weeks, any takers? No? Anyone? Come on, I will trade you.

Will is completely potty trained now, thank you Jesus! Alex is still not walking, which makes me worried, but other than that he is great. Ryan is still Ryan, non-confrontational, but still griping about things and not handling them. Gus is still the lazy, fat dog we all know and love, and I.........am going to have a freaking nervous breakdown. I seriously am considering becoming a monk so I can leave and be in a place of peace. Never going to happen but worth a dream I should say.

Happy Easter Everyone!

I hope today finds all well. Lately things have been going great for us. We are almost finished with everything for the house, all that's left is closing! Ryan's sister Shelby moved in with us about a week and a half ago. Things are going good there too. She needs us and we are definitely going to be there for her.

Ryan is leaving next weekend for Phoenix, he gets to help with the NASCAR thing they have going on up there. I am trying to clear all the "dirt" out of my life. When I say dirt I mean anything that is toxic and unhealthy. Which also includes people. I have been eating better, working out (trying to at least), and ridding my conscious of all the things that bring me down. I let people's words get to me, and rather than keep giving those people the chance to continue to do so, I just quit talking to them and get rid of their energy from my life.

I think in the long run, that is the best decision I can make for me and my family. My boys need a mom who is happy and wants to play with them and at least kind of keep up with their activities. Instead I am mostly tired and crabby and I lose my temper because of all the drama I put up with from other people. So there it is, for the first time in my whole life I am letting them go and moving on.

I knew this year would be my first year of change. Happy Easter again everybody!