AAAAAGGGGHHHH!!!

I don't even know where to begin! We are moving but we don't have a house. I want to get a job but have no college education. I want to get a degree but have no money to go to school. Seriously is there anything that is going to go right for me? For the the last three days I have been up until freaking two o'clock in the morning, filling out applications for schools, filling out applications for scholarships and grants, finding a house that Ryan and I can agree on (haha funny), and looking for jobs that will hire someone with only a high school education.

I don't even know where to begin on how frustrated I am at this point. Ryan and I are so different when it comes to our opinions on just about everything, I don't know how we are going to make any kind of decisions when it comes to our life and where we live it. Now I feel incredibly sorry for our children, their father and mother are two completely different people and those poor kids are stuck in the middle not knowing who to respond to. I don't know where to go from here anymore.

I have done so many things the last few days and yet it feels like and looks like I have done nothing but waste a bunch of paper on houses we may or may not get. I haven't even really been eating because I spend just about every waking second on all this crap that needs to get done in the next 1-3 months. Really? Is there anything else that would like to go wrong? Go ahead and hit me up now while I'm still frazzled.

Oh ok found something else to be pissed about, still need to find Will a bog boy bed and furniture for his new room because he is outgrown everything he has, and him and his father both need all new clothes because they have outgrown those as well. I am broke as a joke and no way of figuring out how to fix all of this in the time it needs to be done. Let's hope that things will work out now that we have found someone to find a house for us that meets our expectations and criteria. Then we just need to get the rest of this crap taken care of and for once I might not have a heart attack. Wish me luck!