That is such a hard lesson to learn. Especially for someone like me who desperately wants to believe that there is good in all people and no one is really mean because they like to be. I have been proven wrong time again on this subject, but no matter how bad the hurt is, I refuse to give up this belief. I have had a hell of a week and it seems to get worse as the days go by.
I still haven't slept and it's been almost 2 weeks now. Will decided that he doesn't want to use the potty anymore after he was doing so amazing. Alex is pissed off all the time from cutting more teeth, and I am a wreck. I fell down the stairs the other day, which normally would be hilarious, but this time I seriously got hurt. I have a slight concussion and a couple of bruised ribs. What did my husband do when he found out? He laughed at me.
I am not mad at him for it, any other time I would have laughed at someone else falling too, but not if they got really hurt. That's just harsh. Of course this is coming from the same girl who while waiting at a red light on my way to work one day, decided to honk my horn at a little old lady crossing the street when she got right in front of my car. I laughed pretty hard. She didn't fall down (she just clutched her chest and then flipped me off.) But that is a completely different situation.
My head feels like it is going to explode at any minute and my back and ribs have never felt so much pain. To make things worse, this is the time when it seems everyone and their brother has something rude or mean to say about me. I will not go into detail, because it will only make me cry and that will just make my head hurt worse. But just know that people are cruel and vicious and I don't understand them. I think that now is the time for lots of compassion and understanding, and possibly a baseball bat and a lot of rage. I guess when it rains it pours and man is it pouring on me.
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