When will this be over?

I am tired of waiting. It seems like all I ever do is wait for something. I wish Will would just be done peeing and pooping his pants already and not have to have me tell him to go to the bathroom. I wish Alex would just start walking already so I don't have to carry him everywhere. I wish Ryan was home so we could sit down and talk and maybe not make me feel so alone.

I wish I could get some freaking sleep! I just want simple things to happen, it's not like I'm asking for world peace or to win the lottery. I do want world peace and of course the lottery would be great. But I think the other things are a little more important at this point. I need.......I need.......I don't know what I need. Does anyone else know anything about how I feel. Sometimes it feels like I am talking to a brick wall.

I just want everything to start falling into place already, this is getting ridiculous. I want to get out of this shit box we call Tucson. I want to be back where "normal" people are. Where I don't have to speak Spanish to order a freaking cheeseburger from the dive thru. I just want to be moved on and start over. In case you couldn't tell, I needed a vent as well.